A Land More Kind Than Home Page 9

  “Guess who’s back in town?” I asked her.

  “I heard you talking to Robby,” she said. “You think he’ll be with Ben?”

  “It sounds like it,” I said. I looked into the glass and watched her ghostly image fold its arms across its chest and lean against the wall behind me.

  “Please be careful, Clem,” she said. “Don’t let any of this get out of hand. There’s no use in anybody getting hurt, especially you.”

  “I’m not planning on anything getting out of hand,” I said, but as soon as I said it I knew good and well that sometimes you can’t account for the bad things that happen.

  FIVE

  I CLIMBED INTO THE CRUISER AND TURNED ON THE LIGHTS AND the siren and drove along the top of the ridge before taking the road down toward Marshall. I knew there were hollers in places below me where it had been dark for almost an hour, but up here on the ridge the sun was struggling to be remembered and I could see red and gold still lighting up the sky in the distance on the Tennessee side of the mountain. I remembered the half-finished cigarette in my breast pocket, and I dug it out and pushed in the lighter on the dash. When it popped, I lit up and rolled down the window.

  I smoked what was left of that cigarette and thought about how our son, Jeff, was still alive the last time I responded to a call about Ben Hall. Jeff was about sixteen years old then, maybe seventeen, and the boys were probably juniors at the high school. My son had been friends with Ben for a long time, and I’d known him just about his whole life, but then again so had everybody else, especially after he started making a name for himself on the field. Ben was probably the best football player to ever come out of this county. He’d played left tackle, and he was a big boy too, bigger than any of his teammates, bigger than just about any lineman he ever faced. He got a scholarship to Western Carolina and spent half his freshman year riding the bench and realizing that they made bigger boys than him in other parts of this country. They put him at linebacker near the end of the season, and he did pretty well: played in a few games, did a little partying, got into some trouble, and came home that summer after his grades had fallen so low that he couldn’t keep his scholarship. There wasn’t no way his piece of shit old man could get himself together enough to pay his tuition so he could go back in the fall, so Ben just hung around Madison County, got married to a sweet-looking girl named Julie, and he’d been here ever since.

  One night when they were in high school, I’d gotten a call around ten o’clock about gunshots in one of the new developments out by the interstate, and I left the office in Marshall and headed east on 25/70 toward Weaverville. There are so many neighborhoods out that way now that I couldn’t even tell you which one it was with any certainty, but back then there wasn’t but a handful, some without any houses built in them yet, a few of them without paved roads.

  I turned my lights off and rolled down into one of those developments and instantly noticed how dark it was once I’d left the main road. After a second I realized it was because somebody had gone through and shot out all the streetlights. The busted glass looked like huge pieces of broken eggshells had been gathered into little piles and left on the sides of the street. At the end of a cul-de-sac I saw an old Camaro parked with its lights out. I recognized it as belonging to a friend of theirs Jeff and Ben called “Spaceman,” and after all these years I can’t remember that boy’s real name, probably because that nickname suited him so good. I parked and killed the engine and walked the rest of the way to the car. I found the three of them sitting on the ground, leaned up against the Camaro’s back bumper, Ben holding a still warm .22 rifle, and two bottles left in a twelve pack of Michelob sitting on the ground in front of them. The rest of the bottles had been busted, and the glass was scattered all around them. I knew they were good and drunk when Jeff looked up at me and smiled like he wasn’t one bit surprised to see me standing there in front of them.

  “Well, hey, Dad,” he said.

  “Y’all know I could arrest all three of you, don’t you?” I told them. I leaned over and took the gun from Ben and checked to make sure it was empty.

  “Yes, sir,” Jeff said, suddenly somber. The other two didn’t look up at me.

  “But I think it would be better for me and worse for y’all if I just took you home so we can let your folks know what you’ve been up to tonight. Tomorrow morning we’ll come back down here and get all this glass cleaned up. And then we’ll find out who y’all need to pay to replace these streetlights.”

  “Man,” Spaceman muttered. I loaded them all into the cruiser and drove up out of the dark, empty development and back toward the county. Jeff sat in the seat beside me, and I could smell the beer on his breath, and I tried to predict what Sheila would say to him, and to me, about all this. I looked in the rearview mirror through the metal screen that divided the front and back seats, and I saw that Spaceman had laid his head back on the seat and his eyes closed. Ben stared out the passenger’s-side window. I turned my eyes back toward the road.

  “My dad’s going to kill me,” Ben said, almost to himself. I looked in my mirror again and tried to catch his eye, but he was still staring out the window.

  “I think you might need it this time,” I said. “Drunk and disorderly. Discharging a firearm. Destruction of property. You might need a little killing.” Ben closed his eyes and leaned back in his seat just like Spaceman had.

  “Y’all don’t understand,” he said. “He’s really going to kill me. Y’all don’t know what it’s like.”

  Ben Hall was already six foot two by then, maybe six foot three, and his daddy was just a little guy, maybe five nine, but I could see fear in Ben’s face and I could hear it in his voice. I’d seen his eyes blacked up a couple of times, and I knew that whatever beating his old man had put on his wife that drove her to leave him he’d also put on Ben more than once. I just couldn’t believe a boy that huge wasn’t big enough to put a whooping on a man that small. I reckon I understood then just what Ben was up against, and I sighed loud enough for all of them to hear it.

  “Well, maybe y’all should just stay at our house tonight,” I said. “We can figure all this out in the morning.”

  “Yes!” Spaceman whispered to Ben like he was celebrating an eleventh-hour reprieve. Even Jeff seemed to relax in the seat next to me, as if knowing that having his friends at our house would stall whatever punishment was coming his way. It got quiet again.

  “Putting it off ain’t going to make no difference,” Ben said.

  SOMETIMES I THINK THAT I MIGHT’VE LET BEN STAY THE NIGHT with us not because I was afraid of what his daddy would do to him if Ben came home drunk just like his old man did every night but because I was afraid of what Ben might finally do to his daddy with that license that alcohol can give a man. I wasn’t ever afraid of Ben Hall, but I think I might’ve been a little afraid of what he was capable of doing to other people, including his daddy.

  It was the memory of that night, especially the look of what I took to be fear or maybe anger in Ben’s face, that put me ill at ease as I drove out to Adelaide Lyle’s house. The thought of Ben confronting some of those folks from his wife’s church with the knowledge that they might be in some way responsible for his son’s death made me worry that all those years’ worth of beatings would come to a head in a violence that Ben couldn’t predict, a violence he’d have no interest in controlling. My fear wasn’t founded just on the fact that he was a big boy who’d had to develop a tough streak or because his drunk-ass daddy had come back to Madison County and was likely headed over to Adelaide Lyle’s house with him. I was afraid because I knew that church, and I knew the man who ran it as if he thought he was Jesus Christ himself, and some of those people who went to that church believed in Carson Chambliss like he might just be.

  People out in these parts can take hold of religion like it’s a drug, and they don’t want to give it up once they’ve got hold of it. It’s like it feeds them, and when they’re on it they’re likely to do anything t
hese little backwoods churches tell them to do. Then they’ll turn right around and kill each other over that faith, throw out their kids, cheat on husbands and wives, break up families just as quick. I don’t know exactly how long Carson Chambliss had been living in Madison County the first time I ever ran up against him. And I’m not saying this fanaticism started with him, because I know it didn’t. That kind of belief has been up here a long time before I arrived on this earth, and it’s my guess it’ll still be around for a long time after I’m gone. But I’ve seen his work firsthand, and I still can’t put my finger on what it is and why it affects folks like it does. Ten years ago I saw a man set his own barn on fire while his family just stood out in the yard and watched it go, just because he thought it was the right thing to do.

  In my mind that barn’s still a burned-out spectacle set against a darkening sky. The neighbors had all left their houses in the cove and followed the gravel road down to Gillum’s land, where they were facing the grassy rise atop which that barn sat with the bright orange light flickering inside. I’d followed the smoke down from the highway, and I was driving slowly past the fence when some of them turned to look at me like they hadn’t ever seen the law before. But most of them kept their eyes on the barn where it was swollen with smoke from a season’s worth of crop burning. What looked like fog rolled the length of the pasture and picked its way through the barbed wire fence. The cruiser’s windows were down, and the air was tobacco-sweet.

  Gillum and his two daughters were standing in the yard watching the barn. His wife had gone into the house to save herself from watching it burn and to put off the accounting of loss that would follow. I still picture her inside a too-warm room with closed windows and doors, where she busies her hands and pays no mind to the smoke drifting through the yard and the sound of the boards burning and popping loose from the barn’s frame. If she’d have pulled back the curtain, she’d have seen me walking through the yard toward the smoke where Gillum was standing with their daughters and waiting for it to be done.

  “What’s happened here, Gillum?” I asked him. He didn’t take his eyes from the barn, but his right hand left his pocket and touched the shoulder of his oldest daughter. She was maybe thirteen, and she jumped like electricity had suddenly passed between the two of them. Her face looked sad and scared, and she moved closer to her father. Gillum looked at me, and then he looked back at the barn.

  “I’m just taking care of something, Sheriff,” he said.

  “I noticed the smoke from the highway and thought I’d better come down,” I said.

  “Everything’s fine.” He was quiet, and I listened to the fire spreading itself inside the barn. Whispered voices rose below us where the people had gathered to watch down by the fence.

  “Gillum, you’ve got a season’s worth of tobacco drying in that barn. I know better than to think it’s fine.” Before I could say anything else, his youngest girl looked up at me.

  “I seen him run in there,” she said. She looked at her daddy, and he reached down and took her hand. She leaned her head against his leg.

  “What’s she talking about?” I asked. Gillum didn’t say nothing, and the girl just looked at me. Then she tilted her head back and looked at her daddy again.

  “Who’d you see in there?”

  “She says she saw the Devil come running down the road,” the oldest girl said. “She says she saw him run into the barn.”

  “Is somebody in there?” I asked. Gillum’s gaze left the barn and turned toward the ground. Up the hill in front of him, the flames had dispatched with the low beams and moved upward along the crossbeams toward the pitch. The eaves were beginning to burn. The roof would catch next.

  “Libby Clovis took sick awhile back,” Gillum said. “Bob tried to wait it out, but her fever just wouldn’t break. He rode her over to the county hospital, and they looked her over and couldn’t find nothing to do for her. He was close to riding her into Asheville when she got worse, but her mama wanted him to send for the preacher. He told me he figured it couldn’t hurt.

  “Libby’s mama brought out a preacher from Marshall named Chambliss, and Bob said that preacher closed himself up in the bedroom with Libby. He said he could hear all kinds of carrying on behind that door. Sounded like the furniture was getting smashed to bits, like the bed was being lifted up and down off the floor.”

  I turned and looked down toward the people gathered in front of the fence. In the back I saw the tall, gaunt figure of Robert Clovis bringing an unlit cigarette to his lips. Our eyes locked, and he looked away quickly. He struck a light, and his washed-out face was framed briefly against the darkening road that fell away behind him. I turned back toward the fire.

  “Who’s in that barn?”

  “It’s not for me to say just what it is,” Gillum said. “But Bob told me Chambliss called the family into the bedroom late this afternoon and asked them to all join hands and pray. Bob said they stood there and held hands and prayed, but he kept his eyes open and looked around. He told me it left her body suddenly. He said everybody in the room saw it: the preacher, Libby’s mama, him. They saw it leave her body and run out of the house like a shadow. Whatever was in her is in my barn now, and I mean to be rid of it tonight.”

  “You think the Devil’s in your barn?”

  “Like I said, it ain’t for me to say just what it is. I just know it’s there.”

  “I don’t know what your daughter thinks she saw, but I hope that barn’s empty when this fire burns out.”

  “You ain’t going to find a man’s body in there,” he said. “I can promise you that.”

  Most of the folks in the group by the fence had gone home, and it was full dark when the north side of the barn collapsed and took part of the roof with it. The sound of splitting wood was followed by a shower of glowing embers that fell like snow onto the lawn. Flakes of warm ash floated toward us, and I felt them blow across my face and I brushed them from my shirt. The noise of the collapsing roof startled Gillum’s youngest daughter, and she started to cry.

  “Take her into the house,” he told the oldest.

  She picked up the little girl and carried her toward the house, where faint lights burned behind curtained windows. I watched them go until the darkness swallowed them. When I turned I realized that Gillum was gone, and I searched the yard until I saw his shape moving away from me toward a small well house. I stood watching his retreating figure and suddenly realized that people were moving past me in the darkness. The neighbors who’d left earlier had returned, and many of them were carrying aluminum buckets and plastic drums. They walked quietly through the yard.

  I found myself following the group up to the well house, where someone handed me a bucket and I stood and waited for Gillum to fill it with water from the hose. Behind me I could hear the hiss of the hot ground being cooled as bucket after bucket was dumped onto the smoldering grass. The pump inside the well house clicked on, and the low hum competed with the noise of the fire and the sounds of the feet shuffling in and out of the line.

  When my bucket was full, I carried it toward the fire where the others circled the barn and soaked down the grass along its perimeter. A few had even climbed a piece up the hillside and were tossing buckets of water into the trees. The only light came from the fire, and the darkness around me moved with the sound of falling water. I carried the bucket by the handle, and in its swinging the water overflowed the sides and wet my pants and my boots. I moved slower until I felt the heat of the fire on my face, and I stopped and stood beside another man and carefully soaked a strip of grass at my feet.

  I went back to the line, where Gillum refilled my bucket, and I worked my way around the barn, soaking down the grass and trying not to inhale the sour smoke from the treated lumber. The earth grew wet until my feet were sloshing through the grass, but I continued to refill my bucket and follow the others clockwise around the barn. I poured the water methodically in straight lines until the grass was no longer steaming. I looked to my
right and saw a man in a baseball cap beside me with a cigarette in his mouth. He was using both hands to dump the water from his bucket and trying in vain to blink the smoke from his eyes. I walked back to the well house, where Gillum was still standing and filling emptied buckets. He was talking to someone; when I got closer, I saw it was Robert Clovis.

  “I’m going to help you put this back up,” I heard Clovis say. “I can’t help but feel responsible for it.”

  “There’s no need for that,” Gillum said. “We can see to that tomorrow. I just want to make sure I don’t lose nothing tonight that I can’t get back.”

  “I’m sorry,” Clovis said.

  “There’s no need,” Gillum said. Clovis waited until his bucket was full, and then he walked back toward the barn. I stepped forward and held my bucket before me, and it grew heavy as the water from the hose began to fill it.

  “I appreciate your help,” Gillum said. I looked up at him and nodded my head, and then I turned to follow Clovis back to the barn, but I stopped when I saw that the fire was slowly burning itself out and the field was already full of inky silhouettes moving against the darkness.

  SIX

  THAT NIGHT, WHILE GILLUM’S BARN SMOLDERED IN THE wet grass, Carson Chambliss suddenly showed up on the radar of the Madison County Sheriff’s Department, and he’d been there ever since. He didn’t seem to have any connections to the area, and there wasn’t any family in this part of North Carolina that I could find. I called on a couple folks around here who I trusted, who I knew could keep their mouths shut about these kinds of things, and I found out he’d come up from north Georgia: Stephens County, about three hours southwest of here. It took a few phone calls, but it wasn’t hardly a day or two before I was on the phone with Sheriff Tyrie Nicks in Toccoa, Georgia, asking him if he’d ever heard of a man named Carson Chambliss.